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...this is the story of a boy meets girl.

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Pauline,
1:45 AM Dubai time

..i hate you (comes from the my heart),

But then again I’m thankful that you touched my life in so many ways…sori I cant be the person you want me to be, I cannot make boundaries on us(Bugoy&Tangerine) I just hope its ok for you if I’d call you that…I know I’m on the wrong end, no excuses right?... I’m not sayin’ I’m fallin’ for you, its just hard not to(in the sense you touched me).

…let me define Pauline(Tangerine).

• Bisaya 100%
• Strong (Sometimes she get her strength from her loving circle of friends)
• Happy
• Dark side ( I cant say it, sori)
• Appreciates but not recognized what is essential
• Big heart
• Stubborn
• Makes me smile and disconnect from being black at times
• Negativity blocker
• White lies?
• Understanding in some way
• Likes Coffee
• Loves Tequila
• Admires Havaianas
• Triste

 


…as for Bugoy (he doesn’t stand a chance). In contrast I hurt you in so many ways, coz you forbid me to go into your life (this is what you want me to feel). I can say your special to me, it’s a lie if I will tell you that I don’t love you, coz I do (just read on the lines) but love and falling in-love is something else…I’m not in-love with you Tangerine but I can say out loud that I love you who would not love you? For the importance you’re giving me, but I am sensing I am being a burden for you, makin’ you slow somehow… as I am always sayin’ to you I don’t build something on lie’s (not sayin’ you are a lier) but you said it…I just cant express in words how much you meant to me, but you are makin’ boundaries things I cannot conceived to understand why do you have to complicate things, so when you are ready to accept me for my positive and negative let me know…

Lastly thank you for not letting go, for being there when I need you for seeing me, when no else can…Go and make somebody happy (no worries for the HR thing I will make it happen for you) Please take care I will miss you a lot, thank you for showing me what I am, for being honest?(not sure doh). Thank you for pickin’ me up.

Bugoy

2:27 AM Dubai time

XVII

Pablo Neruda


I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

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WHEN I MET YOU

Love do happens.
There are millions of people in this world, and it all comes down to one. And it was him---my Bugoy. He was like an angel, you know? I never knew life could be like that. He was the one thing I followed through in my life, the one thing I didn't give up on. I was good at loving him 
Let’s cut the story short.
When I was in Dubai, I was in a Recruitment company where I have to receive and do so many calls from different applicants. I was holding my mobile phone for the company like 24 hours---with no miss just in case. One day my phone rang in a late afternoon while I was at the balcony of our flat, mesmerizing the sunset on a summer time of Dubai. A man introduced himself on the phone as somebody whom I thought was an applicant or a client at some point. However, somewhere along the line, I got the point that he was not an applicant nor a client and so I have no business at all of talking to some stranger. When I was trying to cut the call, finally, he has told that somebody gave my number to him. With so much arguments on the phone, I ended up knowing his interest of talking to me. Please note, he is just interested to talk to someone like me. Weird right?That was our first conversation.
From then on, we keep on talking on phone more often and meet each other and finally realize and woke up one day we fell in love with each other.
And so, I love the person who created the phone, because of him, Bugoy and I where more than connected to each other...
When you realize that you want to spend the rest of your life to somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible...and so we are getting married.